Kinda Annoyed

WHAT CAN I SAY I'M Just freaking annoyed by you~ I don't know why~ Please don't ask me why~ Coz you never bother to know anyway coz you never answer MY CALL and even REPLY my MSG~ No one ever treat me like that... == I just hate it.. I hate you, and I hate myself ~ OR am I Lying to myself.. I think I just like the old time~ Being friends are much more better than having a STUPID FEELING~T_T

I hate you...I keep on saying that to lie my own heart.. What to do? that's d only way to make me hate you.. Somehow, my heart feel pain~ Pain.... Bleeds inside... No one can ever see that.. I just can't believe that day I face you with our friends.. acting like nothing happen.. I smile.. but behind it.. I actually feel wanna bang on the wall.. I feel like to avoid you but somehow can't coz if i avoid will be so obvious among our friends..

When i think back, maybe I'm not good to show my love towards people.. I hate myself being like this.. coz this has happen previously, and this history repeat again... Lost someone I love but pretend like it's nothing happen.. I'm regret didn't tell him I love him last time but I've said before I'm not the kind would fall in love... but i did fall for him, when the time he started to be cold to me.. Now, he's so happily with the GF, I'm happy for him too coz I don't think i would be as good as his gf... LOL~When I think back right, love need timing too, if both on the right time and track it would be a fairy tale.. XD