Another ramdom thoughts~

I hope that you get what I trying to say.. I try but I can't~ I hate myself.. if only you get what I mean eh.. I'm so stupid eh.. so freaking ego in this thing.. i feel wanna slap myself.. I gather up courage, just to hear your voice.. LOL~ I realize whenever i listen to your voice, i feel energize.. hahahahaha.. at times, i do feel tired of my own life.. somehow, just to hear ur laughter makes me feel that you own my world.. Gosh, this is so funny~ It seems that something missing in me but I don't wanna admit it.. I'm trying to be strong but actually I'm weak.. How I wish I can tell you my exact feelings.. I just hate myself being like that.. That's my freaking weakness... ARGH~ I shouldn't be that stubborn anymore~ I wonder if i really do into you.. I'm still doubt my own feelings... I do wonder what do you think and feel about me.. if only you're the kind that will say it out.. I just let it be, if we are meant to be together, no matter how long it takes we will be together in the end..